Diary...!
I think I had this one while napping? I don't remember. I was with my family in a vacation home (bungalow?), and our neighbours were a rich family and they were all redheads. This is important because I've seen the grand total of 2 redheads in my entire life. An UFO crashed right in front of our house and we had to take care of the alien inside until a bigger craft came over to take him away. He (?) was mostly just annoying, in that little sibling way. One of the redheaded kids came over and was kind of rude, but I tricked him into finding out his three names and he gave up after that. WEIRD! But pleasant. He was cute, and kind of an ass.
Ok so. The redheaded guy AND the alien are both foreign elements, so a new, unexpected person comes into my life and they're super fucking different from whatever came before. I manage to get the upper hand (name telling thing.)
Also wasn't that name game thing super fae-like of dream!me? Interesting, can't pretend to know what it means yet.
Two separate dreams this time! Can't remember them properly though! The latter one had me and my friends hanging out at A's house, then going to Bucharest? I was like, totally lost, and ordered pizza for dogs instead of normal one. The city looked way better than it actually does, though. We went to this really worn-out park, which was supposed to be in Bucharest but I'm 100% sure that it's actually in my home city? Sigh...
The only upside was this INCREDIBLY cool statue that was supposed to be one of our war heroes? It looked more like a cool explosion-based fps characters, very "Mad Max: Fury Road"-y
I hate dreams where I'm only confused and everyone's an asshole and places aren't where they should be. I'm kind of glad I can't remember this one very well. The meaning is I am/will be confused in Bucharest. I literally can't/don't want to extract any more meaning from this boring mess!
JESUS CHRIST. Ok. SO this was an evening dream and well it was the second one that nap but it was BY FAR the more interesting one, I think.
I was listening to an audio book by Shiloh Jackson (dream equivalent of Shirley Jackson???) about a train that crarshes in an abandoned trainstation right in the mountains. I got transported in the story (weirdly common in my dreams) and I was """playing""" the main character, a tomboy-ish blonde (EUGH!) girl. The other people stuck there were an instagram baddie wannabe, that was very nice actually, a soft cottagecore-y girl who was soooooo fucking annoying, a young train worker who was like, my advisor (17) (hot), a younger kid who was fine, I guess, and an old train worker who was also my advisor (old) (grandpa vibes). Several non-sensical disasters (like trains just RAGDOLLING into the station and almost hitting us) take place and, at the end of the book, we run for the hills as a pack of people (who I think were there to save us) chase us in the darkness. Weird!
Noooo fucking idea. But it was sick, and really vivid, and somewhat lucid.
Fuuuuck me this one was... something
So there was this city-wide celebration thing with fireworks and events and stuff like that and me and my friends decided to go but first we thought let's buy some snacks from the supermarket cause the ones there are going to cost a lot. When I got to the cashier and I paid most of the money was fake? But the cashier was like 100% MY TYPE. Like literally perfect. But I had to pay and move on cause otherwise we would be late. This was a very 7-centric dream, so when we got on the promenade we just talked and 1 and 9 didn't really intervene. The sky was so pretty though! When the sun set, the sky was a dark-grey and there were black clouds around it. The moon was huge and waning crescent and the whole sky was covered in James-Webb tier stars. One thing is for sure in my dreams: the sky is going to be really, really pretty. We walk around the promenade for a while and I notice that 1 and 7 kind of stopped walking and when I turn around 7 was giving 1 and blowjob. This is interesting because 1 doesn't have a dick irl! Anyways we keep on walking and eventually we have to leave but instead of the usual stairs we have to take a ladder! A really shitty rickety ladder. Me and stairs/ladders have an old history dream-wise. But until then I was talkling crying sobbing about how I was lonely and desperate and NOT used to dry spells. And 9 looks me in the eyes and tells me "You're not getting anything until you get over 12."
EVEN THE DREAM HAS SPOKEN.
Anyways. I climb the ladder (it's rickety as fuck #hate) and then we get on walking to my house. And the crowd on the roads is too much and we decide to jump from one apartment building to the next. And we come across a large gap constitued by a building that's taller, farther back from the street and populated by evil old ladies that would gladly push us down 6 floors if we dared climb across their windows. 1 and 9 just kind of. Do something I don't know! And me and 7 started discussing the posibilities when she just. Jumps. Boss I tell you my heart just stopped I was somewhat aware that I wasn't in RL but that was TERRIFYING. She was ok, but. Hm. Anyways I got down too by using a rickety ladder™.
When we got to my apartment building dad was really drunk and they were searching for me and it was really embarassing but after a brief argument I woke up :)!
I'm blocking 12 on every and all platforms and from now on I'm focusing on the future. Being a hater was fun! while it lasted. But dream!9 is right I have GOT to move on. I think the ladder-climbing represents... Mental health? School? Something be and 7 have both given up on while 1 and 9 flourish (or at least don't suck at it!). The sky is always pretty in my dreams so I don't think it means anything interesting... Sigh!
Ugh. Way more boring than the last one.
It had that folk-magic aesthetic some of my creepier dreams had and it was me and mom wandering around the fields outside the city and meeting weird people/entities, including vampires, werewolves, monster-hunters and the kids from A Series of Unfortunate Events? Weird, I have no connection to that franchise (?) whatsoever.
I can't remember much about it cause I woke up too suddenly, but the stills I still have in my head look really cool. Also I think there was some storyline about an office worker-type guy coming out as a werewolf to his girlfriend and boyfriend? Hm.
I can't really extract much meaning from this one. I find monsters cool and I had a dream about them! The aesthetic was really nice and nothing of consequence happened!
Kind of interesting? And school related. We went to a play, but I can't remember if we even saw one, wandered through the city, saw some cool buildings, went back to school. There was this guy! Sigh, and what a guy. We went horse-watching with his friendgroup (?). While doing that, we spotted a very clearly rabid rabbit and kind of shuffled back to class, and then to lunch, where we had a very serious conversation about who would kill the rabbit, because it's clearly a danger to the horses. I got this
Horses... I have nothing more to add! I literally don't know.
Dreamt that mom relly DID cheat on my dad and his delusions are right. Weird fucking dream and super emotionally draining. Literally everything else was normal.
Another thing I can't (won't) extract any meaning from!! Hurray!!!
These are technically nap dreams? Whatever!
First one wasn't especially interesting, just going on a trip with a lot of old classmates (I think>) there was this really christian girl, who is the bane of all my existence during trips and I always argue with her INCLUDING dreams!! And we went to a kind of zoo it was! Fun. Saw some capybaras
Second dream was of a couple of like. Cavepeople? Living in a weirdly technologically advanced barrack and fighting boars and also calling upon their friends and some demi-gods? Gods, even? I don't know I forgot to think about it when I woke up cause I was so hot I was dying.
I googled meaning of capybara in dreams and was NOT disappointed. New friendships, better attitudes, all of that good stuff! Boars seem positive too (surprisingly? They're really savage animals from what I've heard.
I was at the beach with my family when mom (who was a vampire hunter?) spotted a vampire going around and wrecking havoc (killing people.) we started to run awaya and I swear to god those people behaved like SIMS on full autonomy they kept looking back. We got into the car and I had to remind them to keep the windows 100% closed because vampires can possess ANYTHING including flies and other small bugs. We get out of the car becaue well guess what that's exactly what happened a fly went in and bit dad and LO and behold the fly was the previously mentioned vampire. There is some time toact before dad turns and I tell him to run in the previous direction as fast as possible so it gives me, mom and M more time to run away and he DOESN'T do that and comes after us, but when the transformation is over the vampire decides to turn into a rabbit next. I get into a fight with the rabbit and I literally tear its skull apart by the jaws but it scratches me THE SLIGHTEST bit. I ask mom what I should do, cause obviously I'm TURNING and she says I should run in the opposite direction and also that shit starts getting bad when both of my hands turn dark green and I'm like ok, it has barely begun, so I start running in the opposite direction, and I start feeling forces compelling me (don't have a better word) to go towards mom, cause M is already at home and safe, and let me tell you running without meaning to is a VERY weird feeling. I tell mom that I probably won't turn for a few hours and she's like fine let's go to church so you can confess one last time. WOW.
We get there and there's like this contest for lil kids for writing in vampire huunter script, which is just geomancy symbols but on a slightly bigger grid (4x5?). I win, in my infinite wisdom, and mom looks at my hands and remarks that I'm turning extraordianrily slowly. And I have an idea. What if I can transfer the vampire fast enough that I stay alive as my own person and also probably a dhampir but that's like fine? So I get the kids lined up and scratch all of them as I hug them in hopes that one 'catches'. I start making a big deal about my dad dying that day and that's when I realise I'm dreaming!! I start for wishing for stuff, in my head, but that's like not enough and I start voicing it and that's when it actually comes """true"""! That's when I invite you to imagine what degeneracy I got up to next ;).
Vampirism has to be a metaphor for mental illness caused my generational trauma. The geomancy symbols most similar to what I saw in the dream is Fortuna Major. Jesus christ. And also the thing about voicing wishes instead of just thinking about it a lot is... interesting...................
